Woodland Beast Baby

ok seriously how creepy is this doll. they call it a woodland beast baby. what the heck is that?! anyways... its a beauty out here in so. cal. the sky is clear. all is crystal with the exception of the smoggy haze on the horizon. all of my friends have left me this week to return to their schools. I now ponder what i am going to do with myself until school starts on the 2nd. I reckon i will read move into my room-ashley's room- and attempt to place my own style on the cheerie lil place.

it was funny talking with ashley this week in that in our discussion about me going to a giant public college she said that out of all of the siblings i would be the last one to have chosen to go to such a place. I like it small and comfortable and where I do not have to make a huge effort in interacting with people. " but then again, she said, if we were to choose who should go there it would be Chanelle". well, its happened.

I've started to accept the future for me, whatever it has in store for me. It frightens me, to say the least but I think Im ok with that.

Stop!

WOW, summer is coming to an end already. This summer, however, was probably as interesting as Mtvs sad-attempt-to-make-a-musical they called American Mall. When my sisters left me on several occasions to visit other parts of our world and had wonderful adventures, I sat at home comfortably, no doubt, but inactive. Exciting, I know. Its what everyone dreams of doing when they are on vacation. Well, this passive and relaxed state of mind came to abrupt halt.

After much discussion and tears, I decided I couldn't return to Biola University, the only other place I loved besides home.

So with my world turned upside down, I'm learning to trust and have faith. My whole life has been planned out already so I have no need to worry about what the future holds as long as I practice having faith and trust in everyone that cares for me.

I guess this first post is just giving an update on what has been happening the last three or four months in my life. The purpose of this blog is to chronicle the transition, that has already proven itself difficult, from my secure and comfortable life into life of the unknown.